Dear God,
I am bruised and weary. I am angry and afraid. I want and need to scream, cry, wail...but I don't, I can't.
The emotions are too strong and raw.
The voice in my head tells me it is just a waste of time and energy.
So I push on, another day done...but not really lived.
I need YOU!!
I know that YOU are with me. YOU have proven it so many times before.
Something has died inside of me and I am left with incredible emptiness.
I know that for something to truly live, it has to die to self...but how long, LORD GOD, will this darkness last before life starts again?
I almost didn't write this letter, because it is not what people want to hear...I am good at portraying what people "want" and "expect"..this, this vulnerablity is hard to do..even on a computer. ~smile~
YOU are giving me strength as I write these words...LIFE is real and DEATH has been conquered!!
"If you'll hold on to me for dear life, " says God,
"I'll get you out of any trouble.
I'll give you the best care if you'll only get to know ME and TRUST ME." ~ Psalms 91:14-15
Help me hold on, help me hold on...
Always and only YOURS
Jean
I love that you are real. God knows what you're thinking anyway so there's no hiding from Him. But many people are afraid to get real.
ReplyDeleteAlthough I don't know the details, I can say that God is faithful. And when you lean on Him moment by moment, He will get you through. He has done that for me.
Blessings and love,
Debbie